Inactivity.

This blog will be inactive for an uncertain amount of time. Will continue blogging as “things” are settled. Thank you.

Jindhar

LDR stinks!

I don’t see we compromise each other as we used to anymore. It must be the distance, yes it must be it. Long distance is most probably the ultimate insensible thing do. I hate it, well who does anyway?

Hey girl, where has your love gone?
I have been trying to keep up whatever we have but seems like I have to search for our love all around.

setelah diskusi yg cukup lama di telefon, gw sekarang hanya bisa menunggu. iya, gw hanyalah pacar khayalan. iya, hubungan ini hanyalah sebuah status. dan iya, kita tidak ada keterikatan seperti dulu lagi. semua ini karena jarak, jarak, dan jarak. I would love to hold on to you, but if things are just not meant to be, I hope you know that you mean the world to me.

The art of a long distance relationship

It’s been 19 months that me and my girlfriend are together. A pretty long road since the actual relationship where we see each other was barely a month, and the rest was merely a long distance relationship between Bern, Switzerland (that’s where I am) and Muscat, Oman (that’s where my girlfriend is working currently). Also before that my girlfriend stayed in Jakarta, Indonesia to go on with our long distance relationship, but heck! It’s still a long distance relationship anyway.

Aren’t long distance relationship just hard and something quite illogical to do? I personally believe it is and used to say to ppl that I don’t believe in such with an attitude that I myself wouldn’t really want to remember. However, now, I am in it. Not saying that I am complaining or regretting this, but probably it is just god is testing me how far I could carry on this long distance relationship. Well, I am still holding on it seems. After a number of ups and downs this long distance relationship is to me, not as bad to some other people have experienced. Is it maybe that me and my girlfriend compromised and understand each other well? all I could say is thank you to my girl that she has been patient enough to hold on to this relationship. I sometimes can’t believe myself that we’re still holding on to this difficult relationship and if you ask me why I keep on holding on to this, let’s just say that this is the part where people keep on saying that ‘love is blind’.

Hopefully our plan to see each other will happen. Even though we’re not quite sure when, I would want to stick with our plan to see each other early next year when I am done with all this Uni activities and her coming back to Indonesia for break. I really really put my hopes high on this one. If it does not work. I swear I don’t know what else I should be doing. can you suggest me anything here please? I feel like I am stuck in reverse.But, what matters most now is that we’re holding on to this with whatever ways we are able to. It’s our 19th months, and as usual we can’t celebrate it like any other couples. Wish you were Sayang (that’s a typical nickname in Indonesian for your loved one), I love you.

your dearest.

the time 'we' happened

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors. I don’t wanna ever love another, you’ll always be my thunder.
taken from the song by Boys Like Girls – Thunder.
happy 19th months girlfriend. Love you.

wir sind möglicherweise unbewusst auseinandergerissen. Ich weiss nicht mehr was ich tun soll.

Berlin, wie wunderschön du bist.

One day after my Berlin trip all I could say was “I immediately wanna go back there”. My long awaited mission to come back to Germany and see all the people I grow up together with was priceless, ultimately priceless and all the sacrifice (financial and negotiation) was all worth the penny. I can just be grateful at this moment.

4 days was I in Berlin, and all 4 days were spent much better than I expected. Right from the start of trip, everything went smoothly. I don’t know what else I can say about it. It was the best definition of perfect for me. However, the saying of “nothing is perfect” is still around. My main reason to visit Berlin was to see my childhood friends whom I haven’t seen in 11 long years! Now I can be just grateful that I get to meet most of them. Es war sehr schön euch alle wieder zusehen (It was so good to see all of you again). I thought after 11 long years not seeing each other, it will be this very awkward reunion where everyone are lost in their own world. But, we all still had the connection. Everyone clicking, laughing at our old stories, and just enjoying the moments that we had recently. All these I can only thank god. Here I was shown that life has its unique ways to keep you happy. Alhamdulillah.

To the people who I was with most of the time during the trip: Galih, Euis, Tami, Arya, Manda, Renitha, and especially mas Kamal.  I just want to say a huge load of thank you and more thanks for this wonderful trip. To Illy, too bad we couldn’t hang out that much but it was still good to see you again. To Jadi, sorry that I have forgotten you but thanks for reminding who you were again. To Mom’s and Dad’s friends, it was a pleasure to see all of you again. To Berlin, thank you for being a wonderful city for me to meet all of the people I used to grow up with. To god, this is the best way for you to show ur mightyness to me.

I don’t know what else to say now. I am back in Bern, doing whatever I do here (killing myself slowly while smoking shisha alone in my room, ok that sounded too much). But, family is what matters most in the end I suppose. Oh well, I just hope that I will get the chance to make another trip to Berlin to see all of you guys again. It was mega fun ok, I mean it. Ok, back to shisha now. Ciao!

it was a violent flashy moment, yet the moment where I had the best moment of my Berlin-trip

I just got back from what I would most probably call the best summer that I had so far. I miss you guys in Berlin already! will start posting up stuff very soon!

an exciting morning

Today the 25th of July got me really excited waking up. Why?

I’ll be flying off to Berlin today!!! aaahhhhhaaaaahhhh yeeehhhhheeeehhh (Kings Of Leon – Taper Jean Girl)

Not just because I get to make a trip to a city in europe, but it is mainly because I will be seeing my childhood friends that I haven’t seen for 11 years long!!! Never thought I will be seeing them again, and I can just thank got for this opportunity he is giving me. Alhamdulillaaahh. We used to know each other when my dad was posted in Bonn, Germany in year 1994-1998. So yes, 11 long years has it been my friends!

I hardly get this excited waking up in the morning. There is usually this burden holding me back to kepp myself tucked in that warm blanket, whether it’s classes or driving my mom some place she asked me too (yes, I am the designated driver in the family). But today, it is different. Berlin here I march! ciaoz!

Berlin Berlin, ich fliege nach Berlin!